it was really silly at first and it seemed like a dream but the ending was too real.
at first i was sitting in the bellflower a gym. on the floor tho in some chairs & brad pitt (i dont even think hes hot) came up to me and said take a picture so i did & so did the girl sitting next to me & i got up to walk away to sit in the bleachers & tyra banks stopped me & said giiirl thats no way to take pictures with a guy & i said okay? so she said come with me and a bunch of like modle dudes walked behind her & so did i & i lost them so as iw as walking down the bleachers i turned to my left & i seen Maalo.
(this is where it turned too real)
& i went and sat right behind him and he looked back at me and smiled and said hi. & i reached down & hugged him. and he held my hands in place & he put my right hand over his heart & hes said that he wasn't feeling good. & i said you will feel better soon i promise. & i sat there in the same position just holding him for like what seemed hours. & it all felt so real i felt him breathe & his heart pumping. it felt like it used to feel when we sat at assembly back in 7th grade & high school. It just all felt real. & then my mom was at the bottom of the stairs & said come down so i let go of Maalo & i went down. & she said i have to pick up Ryan come with me ( Ryan Reyes? yeah so weird cause Ive only spoken to him like twice in my life) & i said okay & she walked outside the gym & i followed but then i turned around and Maaol was right behind me & i asked him if he wanted to come with us & he said yes & then i said well ask my mom & i said where did she go & he said inside ill go get her & he gave me a hug first and walked back into the gym & my mom came back out and i waited for Maalo to come back out & then i realized that he wasn't going to walk out . & i swear to you guys my heart completely sank & i started crying so hard (in my dream) & then i suddenly woke up crying like balling my eyes out.
i guess in my dream i suddenly realized that he wasn't ever coming back & it was only a dream. thats why i woke up crying :(
i've never dreamed about him or anyone in that way :/
i wonder why i did tho.
i think maybe i haven't visited him since i moved back to Bellfower like 9 months now.
& i used to always go because he was like a small block away from me.
i wish i had an answer to the questions in my head :/
VIVID DREAMS SUCK BECAUSE YOU EVENTUALLY AWAKE & THEN YOUR BACK TO SUCKY REALITY :(
Melvin Feterika Jr. [Maalo, Mel]
3.19.87 - 10.18.07
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